Today we remember the babies who were born asleep, or whom we carried but never met, or those we have held but could not take home, or the ones who made it home, but didn't stay.
In memory of all lost angels. ♥

How to not give a fuck

top ten reasons why its great being german!

1. Oktoberfest.
2. Okotberfest-beer.
3. BMW.
4. VW.
5. Audi.
6. Mercedes.
7. On a highway you can travel at a speed that would bring you to jail in any other country.
8. You do not have to learn German as a foreign language.
9. You think Sauerkraut is delicious.
10. Contrary to common belief laughing is not forbidden by law

50 truths that women wished men knew....only a fraction of these are true can i add!

1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.

2. Real men drive stick shift.

3. I will leave if you lie.

4. You are cute in vest tops

5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.

6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.

7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.

 8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.

9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.

10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.

11. I expect you to call me.

12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.

13. I'm scared of losing my independence.

14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.

15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Dsquared2/ Laboutin shoes also do the trick.

16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)

17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm... a. ...having a fat day. b. ...not feeling "connected" to you. c. ...blackmailing you to get something I want.

18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.

19. I own a Metallica CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.

20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.

21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.

22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.

23. You should never tell me what to do.

24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.

25. I demand a lot of affection

26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.

27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.

28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.

29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.

30. I want to be Lady gaga

31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.

32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.

33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.

34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.

35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.

36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.

37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....

38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.

39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.

40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.

41. I love it when you're sweaty.

42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.

43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.

44. I like porn.

45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.

46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.

47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...

48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.

49. I remember everything about our relationship.

50. You should know all this and more with-out my telling you.

some where between having my lip ring pulled and having haribo thrown at me I lost my fucking mind :S

Merry Saturday eve!

Had a long day looking after the kids they have all been hyper active and running me off my feet! and they still aren't tired! Its going to be a long night lol
The missus broke the tumble drier I asked her for a screwdriver she appeared with a table knife and said same animal -__-
shes got my lovely karleigh staying tonight! I've been kicked out of my bed for her and I always have the pillows really weird and if she moves them I'll rip her tits off!
I've had my 11 year old nephew moping all day he broke up with his girlfriend yesterday and is now really fucking miserable! its quite funny hes easier to wind up now
**sigh** still not looking forward to the kids messing me about all night :/ I blame Karleigh!
:/

lol

55 things that I really wish she knew!

1.	Sometimes we just don't want to talk. Don't take it personally.
2.	We notice other women because we are men and we are alive. This does not mean we're planning to dump you and jump them.
3.	Our favorite T-shirts are not "disgraceful." They show our loyalty to our college, our favorite sports team, our favorite beer, our favorite vacation or number 23.
4.	Helpless is not cute.
5.	Get to the point.
6.	Understand that men are single-minded and can only do one thing at a time. So don't talk to us while we're doing something. We will either ignore you, because we don't hear you (honestly), or we'll screw up what we're doing because you've distracted us. Exception to Rule 6. Interrupt us if something is on fire, if someone needs immediate medical attention, if Jessica Alba is on TV or if there is an emergency that needs a hero.
7.	You can't complain that there are no good guys around while some of us are still single.
8.	If you ask us, "Do you think she's prettier then me?" we just might say, "Yes." Then what are you going to do?
9.	Don't expect even a great relationship with us to solve all your problems. Just because we love you, doesn't mean your cellulite, your irritating foster parents or your bad mood will disappear.
10.	We would not wear high heels to impress you.
11.	Breathe occasionally so we can get a word in.
12.	For us, driving is not just a means of going from point A to point B. It's an opportunity to control a couple of tons of steel. We drive, therefore, we are.
13.	If you want us to notice something, help us out by saying something like, "I went to the beauty shop today."
14.	If you have to have a cat, at least don't call him "Mister" anything.
15.	Hide the self help books when we come over. They make us nervous.
16.	We need to vegetate.
17.	We don't go shopping. When we need something, we buy it.
18.	We believe our bodily functions are perfectly normal and, at times, quite amusing.
19.	We don't believe you when you say money isn't important to you.
20.	When we see pictures of Michael Douglas and Catherine Zeta-Jones we feel proud and happy to be men. We don't care if it's not fair.
21.	It's not that we don't want to make you happy, it's just that sometimes, we don't know how.
22.	Learn to work the toilet seat. If it's up, put it down.
23.	If it itches, it will be scratched.
24.	If you ask a question you don't really want an answer to, expect an answer you didn't want to hear.
25.	Sometimes, we're not thinking about you. Live with it.
26.	Don't ask us what were thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss topics such as navel lint, guitar chords or how bitchy brothers can be
27.	Sundays equals sex. Period.
28.	cars are as exciting for us as handbags are for you.
29.	When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really.
30.	You have enough clothes.
31.	You have too many shoes.
32.	Crying is blackmail. (that sometimes works :/)
33.	Your ex-boyfriend is an idiot.
34.	Ask for what you want. Let's be clear on this one: Subtle hints don't work. Strong hints don't work. Really obvious hints don't work. Just say it!
35.	No, we don't know what day it is. We never will. Mark anniversaries on a calendar you know we check.
36.	We're not mind readers and we never will be. Our lack of mind-reading ability is not proof of how little we care about you.
37.	Most guys own three pairs of shoes. What makes you think we'd be any good at choosing which pair - out of 30 - would look good with your dress?
38.	Yes and no are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
39.	Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
40.	A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
41.	We are allowed to raid your underwear if we want to.
42.	Don't fake it. We'd rather be ineffective than deceived.
43.	It is neither in your best interest or ours to take any quiz together.
44.	It doesn't matter which quiz.
45.	Anything we said six months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after seven days.
46.	If you won't dress like the Victoria Secret girls, don't expect us to act like the soap opera guys.
47.	If something we said could be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
48.	You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both.
49.	Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
50.	Christopher Columbus didn't need directions, and neither do we.
51.	If you wear a Wonderbra and a low-cut blouse, you lose the right to complain about having your boobs stared at.
52.	Our relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out.
53.	Men see a limited number of colors, like Windows default settings. Peach is a fruit, not a color.
54.	Ditto melon.
55.	If we ask what's wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing is wrong.

I really wish you would come back your daugter needs you so much and she misses you loads but im sure you can see that

please keep smiling down on her from above

Lol!

First off, I don’t think me calling you Dad would be appropriate, since you haven’t been one to me in years, so I’ll just go ahead and call you what I call you in my own head: the most selfish, idiotic, pathetic excuse for a human that I’ve ever had the misfortune to know. You’re a bully and a coward, that’s all you’ve ever been and all you ever will be. Growing up, you were the bigger kid in school who beat up on all the smaller kids yet somehow never got in trouble for it, and at age 50 that’s still exactly what you are. Just so you know, I think it’s the most pathetic thing I’ve ever seen.
I know you think that me leaving is a temporary thing, so let’s set the record straight here. I am NEVER coming back. You will never see me again. You are never going to see me get married, you are never going to meet your grandchildren. You know why?? Because actions have consequences. All you are is a spoiled child who never had to learn that lesson, but soon you’re going to. Honestly, you’re lucky as hell that you got all the time that you did with me and my siblings. Considering that if I’d told Child Services the truth about where all the bruises on me came from, when they showed up to question me at my school that day in 5th grade, we would all have been taken away faster than you can say “karma.” Just saying. You should consider yourself blessed that at one time I was dumb enough to lie for you, or else your life would have been completely ruined a long time ago.
Not that karma doesn’t catch up to you eventually, of course. All of your children have left you as soon as they turned 18, just as I so happily did a few years back, and you don’t know this yet but Mom’s about to leave you too. Last week, when she called me, she had just gotten off the phone with a divorce lawyer. You’re gonna fucking die alone, and every single nail in your coffin is there because YOU put it there. Congratulations, you have completely distanced yourself from everybody who has ever cared about you.
Sincerely,
won’t say i told you so.

Every night I empty my heart and in the morning its full again....I miss you jimmy

we’ve had our ups and downs. we’ve had our lies and secrets, our fights and weeks of not communicating. i’ve been there for you through  the birth of your child to another man and your drinkaddiction. you’ve gotten me through psychiatric breakdowns, broken dreams and poisonous friendships. you mean the world to me, as do your sons, to whom i feel no bias toward. i just want you to know that the feeling of being in your arms is unlike anything I’ve ever felt. my depression is nonexistent with you in my life. i feel this happiness i never thought i could be lucky enough to ever feel. you make me smile with the smallest of gestures and looks. i love the way you kiss me. i love the way you look me in the eyes like i’m the only boy in the world. i love how you’d kill for me. i love how you have no inhibitions about you and i raising our kids maybe i have some crazy ideas about the future but we’ve had each other in our lives for a long enough time that i feel as though i can get through anything i love all aspects of being with you and you’re the only woman i have ever felt this strongly toward. i know i’m young and maybe this won’t last forever, but it will last long enough for me to have you written into my heart for a long long time. this happiness that you taught me that i’m grateful to have experienced because before i met you i thought i was destined to have lows and average days but never being completely content with my life. now i am.
we have a future, and maybe forever isn’t an option but as long as i’m with you, those feelings will be remembered forever. for you to know that i was chosen by you when you had boys that had been in your life for longer than i have. you love my family, and when you come over i can’t help fantasizing what it would be like to live together forever. i love you so much babe, and i hope there is hope of staying this way for a long time.

last winter was the worst of my life, not because of you, because of that self-destructing personality of mine! I never knew what it felt like to hit such a low that you were crying in your closet to the suicide hotline operators as you listened to their calming words. I found out what it was like to have to put that thick rope from you’re robe up in a high away place so if you have any thoughts you would have plenty of time to rethink your actions. To look at your kids as the only thing keeping you alive.

for my girlfriend....

Don’t ever tell me that you hate yourself. You have no idea how many people love you just the way you are. Your imperfections make you perfectly human, and make me love you even more. Every time you look into a mirror, try and see yourself the way you see me… then maybe you will understand. You are perfect, no matter what, that will never change. I’ve never seen a future with anyone until you. I will always be there to hold you together when you feel like falling apart, just let me see what’s in your heart.